It's amazing how even 17 years after teh fact a person can be haunted by simple stupid things. I had a very bad personal experience in 1995, and I can still remember smells, sounds, words, everything in teh the background. I was reading a short story this afternoon and found myself in heaving sobs and tears because the writer quoted the song playing on teh radio at the moment I ... the point it that so many years after, and I thought it had passed and three lines from a song, typed out send me into a bad place. I hate this silly fear, this irrational breaking down.
I suppose it isn't just that, but stress does a number on a body.. and this was just one more straw that broke the camels back. And it makes me wonder how long a physical violation remains with a person- a whole lifetime maybe. That is a most frightening thought.
